I am from India. I'm 39 ,male from Hyderabad ..Andhra Pradesh. I am a post graduate in Technology, M.Tech(CAD/CAM). Due to some strange twist of situations and social manipulations I am just another victim of Psychiatry, still fighting to escape and find some refuge and recover. Following an incident of food poisoning and subsequent disturbance in my health, I have been branded as a psychiatric patient. For long I could resist and could exercise caution to this Psychiatric drugging as long as I was given the drugs thru food / drinks etc. by way of avoiding taking food or being more alert. I could avoid them more often by taking sufficient care and caution about what I am eating/drinking and where I am taking them.

My resistance to drugs administered included some many un-conventional ones including meditation, consuming more tea, using Gingko Biloba , a Herbal preparation, using some other Homeopathic mother tinctures etc. Unfortunately, the more I could resist, the more powerful drugs were used on me apart from a gross misunderstanding over my meditational practices which helped them brand me as psychic . Subsequently this led to more powerful and very wrong drugs on me which in the course of time made my right brain nonfunctional. And yet times making me experience total paralysis of left hand and left leg. Various Ayurvedic medicines too helped me in healing from this, apart from music therapy etc. This whole saga of medication is going on, inspite of two of my elder brothers (born to same parents) died after continued psychiatric treatment. Which made them feel useless for life after being treated for two+ years in Hospitals, subsequently causing their deaths by suicide ( one brother in 1986, and the other in 1993). However unusual my story looks like.. it is all a fact and is happening and i have every detail for explanation of reasons for such a thing to take place.. none being of my own fault except running and trying to save my sanity.

This time the drugging on me is going on for over 1 and half an year. As my luck turned bad, my family came-up with latest of psychiatry drug application methods. 'Dosing the patient through nasal application', using evaporative medicinal drops/sprays in my vicinity.. like on the bed, around the chair where I sit for more than an hour. etc. And more dangerously now few drops on my shirt front side when I am walking in the street. These latest methods made it impossible for me to escape from the dosages.. and my health deteriorated very fastly without giving any time/respite for me to recover. Till today I have no idea about what kind of drugs they are using on me except that I could gauge the symptoms based upon which I have been treated. This non-contact between the Doctor and the patient only led to very wrong medication and I have been denied to meet the Doctor.

Currently I'm still running from place to place. by now it is almost two years me running around the country in the hope of escaping their drugs at leaset for few days. Though I am pretty sure that they reach me everywhere, I am hoping only for them to leave me someday. The fact that there is a possibility that psychiatric drugs can be administered through nasal cavities, which indeed is more effective as loss of medicine is minimal as it avoids digestive tract in the assimilation process, is proving deadly in my case. Also, as this whole drugging saga on me is going on at different locations and by different people at different times.. there is enough scope for un-supervised drugging and indeed it is taking toll on me at a different level. thus myself been drugged several times in a day at different places and with different doses .Having said this I request your pardon for using this opportunity to express my grief. My only intention in mailing this is to alert the concerned about possibilities of mis-use of psychiatry, also may be to high-light mine as an example with reference to the region I belong to (INDIA). and lastly with hope that someone would help me by suggesting any possible common antidotes to help me recover. I also request any persons of authority in the psychiatric field to please tell me if there will be any permanent damage to my brain from the kind of medications going-on on me.

In my experience over the period mentioned, and after talking to many elderly and learned, and through various texts of ancient Indian medical practices, Yoga etc. I understood that the Vipassana meditation practice is a wholistic method for conditions of normal nature. And even for me to recover, the possibility I was denied.

Even I don't get any help from any possible sources.. my last struggle would be to help those victims and that branch of science and medicine which is trying hard to help such victims of psychiatry and that branch of medicine which trying hard to understand the working of human brain. having gone thru so much and still being able to observe myself thru various situations and conditions i think i have gathered enough information about the subtle workings of human brain and the threads for recovery. I hope I can get a chance to help those in need of such helping hand, in the least.

sincerely,

-<name withheld by request>